Fast Forward

I've decided to fast forward to my first attempt at weight loss since I had lost over 70 pounds in the mid-1990s. In January 2005, I enrolled in an online weight loss program. I weighed in at 233.75 pounds. I had definitely gained back all the weight I had previously lost and added quite a few more pounds. My first week I defied all odds and lost a whopping 2 pounds. Every one else on the blog had lost upwards of 5-7 pounds the first week. I was discouraged but determined not to quit. I kept up this online program until June 2005 when I weighed in at 208.25 pounds. I had lost all motivation as I didn't feel I had any encouragement and because my weekly loss was so small compared to the others on the blog, I was frustrated. As much as I hate to admit it, I quit, but I kept stepping on my home scales. My weight started gaining momentum upwards. I was on an emotional eating roller coaster that refused to stop.